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Before I had children I dreamt of days spent on the sofa with a baby in my arms and something good on the TV. I imagined myself walking to the local park with my baby securely snuggled up in a baby carrier on my chest. The sun would be shining and I would sit on a blanket on the grass watching the world go by whilst tending to the needs of my baby.
I would spend hours lovingly singing and talking to my baby to help them sleep. I’d cuddle them when they cried for as long as they needed me to and we’d sleep peacefully in our own beds!
It was all very idyllic!
Then reality hit and I soon realised how naive I was!
Of course I didn’t imagine myself with twin babies in all this day dreaming I’d be doing though!
I didn’t know how hard it would be to be a parent. Nobody told me about all of the emotions I’d be feeling after giving birth and how hormonal I’d be!
I spent most days crying for no reason!
Our twins were born six weeks premature by planned c-section because twin two, now known as ‘M’, had stopped growing. She was born weighing 2lb11 and R, who was born first, was born weighing 4lb3.
They spent 27 days in special care and I can tell you it was a time in my life that I’ll never forget. Unless you’ve been in a special care unit as a parent to a premature or ill baby you’ll never truly understand the emotional upheaval it puts on you as an individual and also as a couple.
I never expected to feel so emotional. I mean I knew I’d feel emotional, but the amount of emotion I was feeling was overwhelming.
I didn’t know how to deal with the constant flow of visitors and I hated the thought of other people looking after my babies. When I say other people I mean the doctors and nurses. I felt helpless.
Anyhow, 27 days later we brought our beautiful, little girls home which meant we could get on with being a family and learning all about one another in the comfort of our own home.
You may remember at the beginning of this post I mentioned going for walks to the park with my baby strapped to my chest?
Things didn’t quite pan out like that, but it was still great!
As we have twins I’ve only ever used a baby carrier once! Aside from that one time we’ve always used a double buggy. Don’t even get me started on trying to get a double buggy into some shops, although it is great when in a crowded shopping area as people will just swerve to avoid you!
I didn’t know how hard it would be to feed a baby, well two babies! I just thought I’d take to breastfeeding like a duck takes to water, but sadly that didn’t happen. Not for the lack of trying, but we did end up using bottles.
I now know all about silent reflux as M had this. Something I’d never even heard of before I’d had children. It meant even the sight of a milk bottle would scare M as she just associated a bottle with pain.
Silent reflux is when the milk travels back up the throat and causes pain. M wouldn’t be sick with it, but would arch her back in pain, draw her knees up close to her chest and refuse to drink her milk. It meant feeding time was quite stressful and time consuming. R would drink a bottle of milk within 30 minutes, but an hour later I’d still be trying to feed M!
We soon learnt how to deal with it though and thankfully when we started weaning the reflux disappeared.
Mind you, one thing I should mention is the poop! That was a surprise!
Never under-estimate the power of a babies poop!
Whilst in special care I was changing R’s nappy. As soon I took her poopy nappy off, she promptly projectile pooped everywhere! It shot over the top of her open incubator and all over the floor! I was just thankful that no-one had been walking passed at the time or they would have been covered!
I wasn’t alone in this! A father across from me thought it was hilarious until his son did the same thing! You find humour in the little (and smelly) things when you have a child in special care!
As soon as our twins were born I felt an over whelming sensation of love for them. They were perfect!
As with most babies their first illness is a huge learning curve and your doctor and health visitor become your new best friends as do Calpol and Nurofen! Plus you’ll find yourself spending hours scouring the internet for tips.
Well, here’s a free tip! Don’t buy a nasal aspirator! They’re useless! Invest in a bottle of Cussons Comfort to Snuffly Noses! It contains a menthol fragrance to help comfort little noses and helps to soothe baby and it really does work!
Now at the grand age of two and a half our twins amaze me every day!
They no longer wear nappies. No longer sleep in the day and just the other day we changed their toddler swings into big girls swings!
We enjoy squashy cuddles and kisses, watching countless hours of children’s TV and spending hundreds of hours splitting up fights over toys, but I wouldn’t change anything!
Being a mum was the making of me and I’m loving every second of it!
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