The fading of time. A poignant post about losing mum to cancer and reflecting on memories that are fading all too fast…

May of this year marks 12 years since mums passing. She had ovarian cancer and died when she was just 50 years old. My sister and I were 18. It’s hard to think about what life would be like now if mum was still around. Actually, it’s pretty unbearable to think about. However I do often find myself thinking up things that I think we might have done together. We’d go shopping and try on ridiculous outfits then laugh at one another. We’d enjoy a spot of lunch and have a chat about our lives. I might even ask her… [Read More]

March is Ovarian Cancer Awareness Month

22nd May 2005. A date that will haunt me forever. The day that my sister and I lost our mum to ovarian cancer. The thing about ovarian cancer though, is that the date of her death isn’t the only date that haunts me. There where the days where we witnessed mum fragile and weak. The days where we witnessed her loosing her hair. The days where ovarian cancer showed itself in all of it’s brutal form as sickness and pain took over. Those days may haunt me, but it’s the days where mums strength and inner happiness shined through that… [Read More]

World Cancer Day

World Cancer Day

Today is World Cancer Day. A day in which we can explore what we can do to reduce the global burden of cancer. My life has been affected by cancer. My sister and I lost our mum at the age of 50 to ovarian cancer. That was in 2005. 12 years ago and I still remember it vividly. It’s something that will never ever go away and it’s also one of my biggest fears. To get cancer and leave behind my children. My sister and I were only 18 when we lost our mum and it’s had such a huge… [Read More]

My Doodles has teamed up with Cancer Research UK

My Doodles recently announced that they are actively supporting and working with Cancer Research UK Kids & Teens to help fund kinder cures and treatments for young people facing cancer.  In order to raise awareness and to raise funds, the My Doodles designers have created some special products for Cancer Research UK Kids & Teens: the dragon and the unicorn. Available across a variety of products such as USB, headphones, and tablet cases, a minimum of 50 pence from each sale goes directly to Cancer Research UK Kids & Teens.   As part of the partnership, My Doodles has also… [Read More]

I’m scared I’ll forget mum

It’s 11.30pm. Everyone is in bed except me. I stayed up late to watch the end of a film, but now that’s finished I find my mind going into overdrive.  I’m not sure why now or what’s made me think of her, but I find myself thinking of my mum. I feel an urge to be close to her, but that’s impossible because she died almost 11 years ago.  I turn off the light in the living room, kitchen and bathroom, then head into the spare bedroom downstairs. I open my jewellery box and gaze at the unopened ring boxes… [Read More]

The glue that holds a family together

A mum is a person to be looked up to. A role model for her children to aspire to and also the glue that holds a family together.  A dad of course is also the glue that holds a family together, but when I lost my mum things changed in a big way and I didn’t like it. I still don’t like. We all seem to have drifted apart and are so busy with our own lives that we almost forget each other’s existence.  We lost mum over ten years ago now, so you’d think I’d be used to it… [Read More]

World Cancer Day

Today is World Cancer Day. A day that I couldn’t let go by without writing about it. My sister and I lost our mum to ovarian cancer almost 11 years ago. I wrote a post not long ago about how I feel about it and how it still very much has an impact on my life now.  People say that it gets easier, but it doesn’t. It gets harder. Well, that’s my experience anyway. The primary objective of World Cancer Day is to get as many people as possible around the globe to talk about cancer today. It’s a truly… [Read More]

Life’s not fair

Life’s not fair. I’m pretty sure that’s a statement that everyone has said at some point in their life whether they’re young, old, rich or poor and it’s true. Life simply isn’t fair. I lost my mum to cancer when I was 18 years old. My twin sister and I had to watch as she gradually got worse. She lost a lot of weight, as well as her appetite and her hair. She lost her spark. She used to be so upbeat, energetic, so positive, but ovarian cancer took all of that away from her. How is that fair? How… [Read More]

What is a mum?

First of all – Happy Mothers Day to all of you wonderful mummies! Today would have been my mums 60th birthday. Sadly she’s no longer here as she passed away almost 10 years ago aged 50. She had ovarian cancer. Today I’ll be with my children, husband and mother-in-law. We’ll share a tasty lunch and most likely talk about the same things we always talk about, but we’ll all be together and happy that way. I was talking to our children, R and M on Friday. They were talking to me about their nanna – my husband’s mum. I told… [Read More]

The Kindness of Strangers

What is a good deed? Well, according to answers.com: ‘Good deeds are spontaneous acts of kindness, accommodation, generosity, benevolence, charity, assistance, help, sympathy or aid, all performed with the simple intention of being helpful and no expectation for compensation of any kind.’ In light of this, this tells me that a good deed is a selfless act. An act which is from the heart,that is genuine and has no ulterior motive.  Some people call them random acts of kindness. They can happen between friends, family and even complete strangers.  I like to think that I’m a good person. I like to help… [Read More]